because i had a thought.

i had a stupid thought that i was failing as a feminist (as if it's a stance that needs 'constant effort' or whatever. you really just need to believe in equality and i never find myself not believing in that. i never pause and go, "hm - not such a great idea," so to suggest that i lose 'feminist points' is absurd and completely besides the point, of course.) and it's not like i was going to go around sitting on all of these random guys. i was really just trying to exercise my ability to feel confident in my body. but suddenly i'm walking the streets of downtown and these men are oggling me, and i feel like a fraud. like a total idiot. like i had dressed this way to just get the attention of some men, when i was supposed to be getting their attention with my overwhelming wit. well guess what, neither works.